For Sale

Interviews are all about selling yourself, and, apparently, I'm not doing a very good job.

I've been on just under ten interviews so far this year. Thinking back to the five I went on last year, as I searched for my first teaching position, this general increase is, in itself, an improvement. At least, now, employers are seeing my qualifications and history and actually giving me a chance to come in and talk with them. If only these "talks" proved to be more beneficial. If only they would lead to a job offer.

I can't begin to describe how sick I am of the tired: "We appreciate your time and really enjoyed meeting you."

Or the: "It was a very difficult decision but..."

(Always a but, isn't there?)

Or the: "We hope you'll think about being on our substitute list this fall."

It reminds me of the "always a bridesmaid, never a bride" stuff. I'm good enough to be a part time substitute in their school district, but I'm somehow unworthy of getting a stable, full time position. They like me and see some potential there, they just don't want to hire me for fear that my inexperience will do me, and their district, in. I just wish someone (other than a Catholic or urban school that has nothing to lose) would take a look at my unique science background, my success of just finishing this school year with a smile on my face, and my desire to learn and continually improve myself and my teaching abilities ... And hire me!

I know that I can do a good job if given the chance.

I guess that I'm not letting them know it, as well. ;(